I think I figured it out.
I've got to quit watching CNN before I go to sleep. The images of the earthquake, tsunami, nuclear plant explosions, the financial market are all too much.
Monday night, I couldn't sleep and Tuesday, I just felt like I could barely move. I called in sick. I don't think it was anything physical. Maybe just heart-sick.
A lasting image for me was the little bewildered girl, maybe 3-years-old, standing in a street in front of rubble. The camera just caught this little girl. Where were her parents? Does she have any relatives?
I just got a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.
Then another news anchor was going toward Sendai when all of a sudden, a horse appeared on the street. How on earth did it get free?
I started thinking of all the pets. Japanese love dogs and cats.
My cousin Ken told my cousin Kotoe that he went to four grocery stores, and found one loaf of bread. The rest of the shelves were bare. He's in Kashiwa, which is one of Tokyo's suburbs to the east. What are all those people in northeast Japan doing? And it's snowing now up there.
I know that other people are concerned and are giving to the Red Cross and such. I have a friend who e-mailed me, wondering what he could do. All I could tell him was to check our newspaper, which had a list of agencies that he could contact.
I just can't worry about it any more. I'm just going to make myself sick. I know my relatives will do all they can to stay safe, and we do have an uncle's family living in Kobe if they have to flee Tokyo.
We'll just wait and see.